Monday, October 22, 2012

"Though small in size the ladybug is fearless"

     So in my post Excuses! Excuses! I mentioned that I believe in power animals. (aka spirit animals, totems, or animal medicine) Each animal has a "medicine" or symbolism that one would look to for wisdom, guidance, or some sort of strength. Generally it a shamanic belief but its also tied into native american beliefs. In order to find your power animal you have to go on a spiritual journey. There are a few different ways to do that. I personally found two of my power animals through guided meditation. The symbolism of specific animals have a significance if you dream about said animal, or if you have an encounter with an animal. By significant encounter I mean if an animal comes particularly close to you or it happens to catch your eye and you can't stop thinking about it.
The ladybug brings a message of promise.
     Well, I gave you all a brief explanation on power animals so I can talk about an encounter I had yesterday. But first I have to give you a run-down (hopefully briefly) on my love life haha. Remember that picture of me and my friend Hope? Well her brother (Eddie) and I are interested in each other (with her approval of course!) Long story short, I haven't been sure whether to trust him or not. And I haven't been able to decide whether it is worth the risk to date him. But that's about as detailed as I need to get haha.
     Now comes the power animal part folks! Yesterday I was at Hope and Eddie's house. We were outside watching him work on the three-wheeler. And then a lady bug nearly flew into my face! After getting my attention, the ladybug flies over and lands right next to Eddie. Now I didn't even know what the medicine of ladybugs was. But I knew that the ladybug (or as Hope called it "crawlie!") was trying to tell me something about him. Hope also felt that there was meaning in the ladybug encounter for her as well.
     After looking up the symbolism of the ladybug,  we both felt that it was very fitting. For my connection to this animal a few things stood out to me. "In general ladybugs reproduce sexually, with the female laying eggs. Their life cycle is only about 4 weeks long, meaning that over a summer several generations are produced, linking the ladybug to the energies of regeneration and renewal. Their short life span teaches us not to worry, and to live life to the full and always in the now. Let go, let the universe and your inner voice guide you. People with this totem are generally family orientated, have strong morals and social values." To me I feel like the ladybug is telling me to follow my heart and do what makes me happy right now. I definitely feel like I have been struggling with whether to follow my head or my heart when it comes to this guy.
     The other passage that stood out to me was "
Ladybug showing up in ones life foretells a time of luck and protection, where wishes start to become actualized  The seasons of autumn and spring will be the most plentiful times for those with this power animal. Worries will quickly disperse when ladybug appears as they shield us from our aggravations, paving the way for new found happiness - aim high, you will get what you focus on. However, ladybug also cautions us not to force things or try to hard to fulfill your wishes, go with the flow and let things take their natural course. Your wishes will come true when they do - in their own time!" I interpreted this to mean that its okay to trust him but not to force things too quickly. The luck and protection is something I could really use in this transitional period of my life. I am so glad this ladybug came to tell me that I should be following my heart but letting things come in their own time.
     So my wrap up questions...Do any of you let spirit animals guide you? Have you had any encounters with animals lately? 

Thursday, October 11, 2012


This post is gunna be a short and sweet one because I got an invite to go ring in my birthday with two of my close friends. This is the last post I'll do as a teenager! Holy holy cow! It's kinda silly that I'm making such a big deal about it but it just seems very significant to me. So  I currently have an hour and 45 minutes left till my 20th birthday. Tomorrow my ex-boyfriend Josh is coming over to fix the closet for mum. (Him and I are staying friends but I'm finding it a bit frustrating at times.) So I just wanna jet out early in the morning with my girl Hope. My ride is here! Sorry for such a short post guys!!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Excuses, excuses!

     Okay lovely readers. Or would-be readers, if I ever posted anything anymore. I've got a couple questions and some explanations as to why I haven't been very attentive to this blog. I figure I'll start out with the explanation then ask the question(s). Be warned I've got a quite a bit going on and may ramble a bit!
     I'm not really sure how old the majority of my audience is but I know some of you are older than me and know what turning 20 is like. At least for me lately its proving to be difficult. I'm not sure how to act and whats okay. I'm feeling a lot of (self-perceived) pressure to be what I call a "real adult" but I still feel very much like a kid and I don't know if I'm ready to let that go.
And here's a bonus pic of me (left) and my great friend Hope (right)
 because I feel bad when I  do a whole post and no pics.
      Not only are the pressures of my age getting to me, but I'm also in the middle of searching for a job in Bangor. I've already paid a months rent at my apartment, and I'm looking very hard but it's really difficult to look for a job in a town that is like 100 miles away. So money had been tight lately, and I haven't really had the cash to shell out for new bras to review.
     Lastly, and most personal, I have been going through a lot of issues as far as men go. I just recently (about three weeks ago) broke up with my boyfriend of two and a half years. I'm just having a hard time defining who I am by myself. Its been really good for me but it is a difficult path to follow. So between all those things and a million other little reasons, I haven't paid this blog much attention. I really feel bad for it and every time I thought about it I just found something else to do.
     So now is the time for the biiiig question. How would you as readers feel if I posted more often on here? The trade-off would be that not everything would be about having large breasts and bra reviews. I haven't hammered out the exact details of what I would post but I would try to have much the same vibe. I'd be doing some posts about my style of clothes, maybe some food posts (cooking is one of my passions), music maybe, a lot of my personal thoughts on life and spirituality (I'm believe in a big jumble of Buddhism,  Native American spirit animals, paranormal, and a bunch of other granola stuff) and maybe about my life in general? I would absolutely still be doing posts like I have been about body image and product reviews. So would I still have you all as readers if this change were to go down? Or would you rather I stick to the same content and just not post as often as any of us would like? Leave me feed-back because the decision will really be based on what you lovely readers say!

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Review: Lady Anti-Monkey Butt Powder

     I have two words all busty ladies hate: boob sweat. Its annoying, gross, and can give you a rash, a fungal or yeast infection. Not to mention its embarrassing if it starts to smell or if it leave sweat stains on your clothes. My solution was to wipe with paper towels in the bathroom or id put my anti-perspirant/deodarant on my breasts and just deal with the so-so solutions. 
     My mum, a while back, got some sort of rash under her breasts. The doctor told her it was from too much moisture and heat. She turned to baby powder for the problem. She has since switched to using Lady Anti-Monkey Butt Powder. I did a bit of an interview with her about it.

Me: Why did you start using the monkey butt powder instead of baby powder?
Mum: Because I got it in my Christmas stocking *laughs*
Me: Does it work better than baby powder?
Mum: Yeah, I think so.
Me: What do you like about it?
Mum: Well, it lasts longer and the baby powder was so fine it made it hard to breath sometimes.
Me: Does the Lady Anti-Monkey Butt clump the way baby powder does?
Mum: No it doesn't.

      Now I can't recommend a product to you busty ladies out there without trying it for myself. I decided to test the product under different amounts of sweat potential (just hanging around the house, at work, and while exercising) I applied the powder using a blush brush. It makes my skin feel satin-y soft and it has a very light scent that doesn't interfere with my body spray.
      Lady monkey butt does well to prevent the sweat I get just from being busty. I spent my day off knitting and watching Avatar: The Last Airbender and The Office. And the girls never broke a sweat. But the next day was a bit hotter and I did end up sweating very minimally.
Also the bottle is awesome!
     Then, in order to work up a sweat (just hopefully not under my boobs) I took my dog Cooper for a walk. I took the dog for about two miles and when I got home the girls weren't so dry. Finally I had to test it in the most important environment, work.
     I work waitressing and cooking, so I can't really be running off to the bathroom to dab the sweat away whenever it gets to be annoying. And if any of you have worked in a kitchen during the summer, you know just how hot it can get. Lady Anti-monkey Butt did keep me dry until I started mopping quite vigorously at close-up.
     So my overall opinion is that Lady Anti-Monkey Butt powder is great for day to day sweating. It keeps me dry as long as I don't start doing anything that is considered exercise. I like that the scent is light and that it doesn't clump up the way baby powder does. It leaves your skin soft and dry. Its definitely a nice change from sweating heavily under my breasts all day. I give this product a 7 out of 10.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

"Too Big"

     I saw this on bustygirlcomics today and it made me want to rant. In high school I was definitely the most busty of my friends. They were great about it and didn't judge me. We made jokes, they admired my rack, and I even used my boobs to smuggle cans of soda out of the fridge in the room behind the office for them. But there was a girl who was the friend of one on my friends who made me so angry with her similar comment.
     She basically said "Are you going to get a reduction? Because I would if I were that big. That's way too big." For a second I just stared at her thinking what the hell? Then I got over the initial shock of her rudeness. My reply was something along the lines of  "No, I like my body the way it is. Ive spent years developing this positive body image. Why would I change myself so I can start over from scratch with a different body shape? I'll have to get used to loving that new body."
     It really frustrates me that just because I'm not built the way society says I should be, people assume and think I should change myself to be like that societal norm. Yes there are days I wish I had a B cup or a C cup so I could wear certain clothes or buy bras in a store rather than online. But I wouldn't feel like me if I no longer had my big breasts. I make jokes about them and honestly they're pretty useful. (they make a great shelf or pocket) My breasts are a part of who I am and I love them. I will not get a reduction surgery just because they don't fit in someone else's idea of normal or because some rude girl says they are "too big" The only thing that is the wrong size is people's minds on the subject.
     Have any of you had someone tell you that you need reduction surgery? What are your thoughts on people who say things like this?

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Review: Harlequin Lula Mae

     A while back I ordered a grab bag from Basically you put your bra size in and they send you either two or four (depending on which bag you order) random bras of that size. I had ordered the two-bra bag and they sent me the Harlequin Lula Mae and the Panache Eliza.
     The Harlequin was quite stunning and I was excited to own something so sexy! The lace and details feel so grown up and sophisticated.

And the color is to die for!
     The looks were enough to get me excited to wear this bra. Unfortunately I was not so crazy about the fit. First of all the cups are very weirdly shaped for my breasts. I guess I would describe them as very wide. They almost don't fit just on the front of my ribcage and they gave my breasts a bit more of a conical shape than I like.
Picture of my blog within my blog....BLOGCEPTION!
     Among my other complaints is the fact that the weird shape of the cups leaves me hanging out of the bra but also gapping in other places. The very few times I have worn this bra out and about I end up scooping myself back into the cups every two minutes.

All sorts of gapping going on here.

And it gives me butt-crack cleavage :(
     The other complaint it that the shoulder straps feel too long. Even when adjusted to the shortest length I feel like it should be tighter. Not to mention that the straps tend to un-adjust themselves fairly quickly. I find myself having to fix it much more often than I should have to.
     All in all this bra was very disappointing. Its truly beautiful but the fit is just horrendous! Between giving me a weird shape and letting me hang out while having gaps in other places this bra is just not supportive or comfortable. When I have worn this bra I always feel insecure that I'm going to come tumbling out of it. I'd give the Harlequin Lula Mae a 3 out of 10. 

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Why I haven't been around!

     So it came to my attention that I haven't posted anything since.....uhhhm January. So I'll share with you what has been keeping me from you guys. When I was twelve I was diagnosed with  ulcerative colitis which is very similar to Crohn's disease. In high school I managed it pretty well. But being young and thinking I'm invincible I was VERY bad about taking my medication for it.
     My mother warned me for years that it was going to come back to kick me in the ass (kind of literally) and had pleaded with me to take my meds. About six months ago her warnings turned into reality. I began to get sick and I lost about twenty pounds up until now. In April I ended up going into the hospital for three days and I was put on anti-biotics and steroids for a few weeks. I felt better for a week or two after the medication was done. But two months later (June!) I was back in with worse pain than before. My whole colon was still inflamed.  I stayed there for five days this most recent time. So I was put on a new medication, Humira, because I wasn't responding well to regular treatment.
Why yes I am writing this blog-post in bed and in my pajamas!
     The new medication has to be administered by me. Did I ever mention how scared I am of needles? Luckily, the lovely boyfriend of mine (Josh) is brave enough for the both of us and gave me my first at-home dose.  Humira did send me a kit with a practice pen in it yesterday. And me being a child in a nineteen year-old body had great fun playing with it yesterday. (see picture to the right)
     It has been two weeks since the first dose that they gave me at the hospital and I am feeling great! I have lots of energy and virtually no stomach pain! So I hope to be back blogging more regularly now that things have calmed down for me health-wise. I apologize for not posting for six months!
     So I'd also like to ask, is there any content you would like to see? Send me a message or leave a comment!